The Roller Coaster

Time stalls for no man It marches on leaving victims at its wake Opportunities lost lie trampled in its grave While weeds of regret abound She tries to pull back the hands of time Her fragile hands grasping desperately Weak arms straining under the weight Sweat and tears come rushing down Emotionless eyes, no trace of hope She wishes she could take back words uttered in darkness Deeds done at dusk Alone and afraid she clings to nothing Scarred, fragile hands fall helplessly to her side All is lost The past cannot be rewritten What’s uttered cannot be taken back Now the future looms ahead Unknown, uncharted Questions pester her nearly insane mind Doubts fill the creases of her heart Yet she takes one tiny step forward Despite the excruciating pain and immobilizing fear Another step follows Tears flowing down She yearns to look back She yearns to run back Her foot fumbles forward Her future may be unknown But it can be brighter than her past Her pace quickens as courage fills her heart ...

I miss you more than you know Not seeing your face brings tears to my eyes I want to hear your voice again The joyful peels of your laughter A huge gaping hole has replaced my heart A hole no one can fill I want to be where you are I want to embrace you once again When will this pain go away? When will I be numb to your absence? My heart is broken within me Tears are my food Sorrow my dessert You fill my mind Questions pester me Regrets creep silently in Oh how I wish I could turn back time There would be so many things I would do differently I would spend every waking moment with you I would never lose my temper I would always be patient I would never complain I would always serve you I love you so much Without you I feel so lost and alone So hopeless I fear my life will never be the same I fear sorrow will engulf me I fear I will taste no more joy I fear life without you

In the darkness of my valley Where were you? In the sorrow of my soul Where were you? In the unheard cries of my heart Where were you? In the despair and struggle for comprehension Where were you? I cried to you with all that I had I hoped in the one I knew could save I banked on the arm not too short to save But where were you? Where did you go? The demons torment me Yet rescue did not come Darkness engulfed me Yet your light did not shine Where are you? My heart cries out Where are you? My soul weeps within me You have always been faithful and true Promises you never broke Always providing always caring Never failing your love endures But where were you? When I needed you the most Where were you? I dont understand this storm I am in I dont understand my hope put to shame I dont understand how your promises could be fulfilled I dont understand I dont understand I grasp for comfort Search for love Yearn fo...